
Just another mini metamorphosis

Whats your current weak spot?
l guess the most honest answer must be that you don’t know.
None of us do.
Not until it’s pointed out to us, anyway
My own life has taught me that I can identify my own current weakest spots. I do this by trying to become more aware of what I’m subconsciously drawn to.
When I was a problem-drinker, it took me years to accept that it was an issue for me.
But I was always drawn to sober literature and forums about people who were quitting alcohol.
l found sober people‘s stories really interesting.
Whereas now, none of it appeals to me anymore.
Because drinking is no longer my weak spot.
There’s always something to work on.
A few years ago this thought would have made me feel intimidated and hopeless, truth be told.
But that’s because I didn’t understand that I was always working on something
Which, unfortunately, meant that I was often working on making my anxiety worse.
At the moment, I’m really drawn to anything that’s to do with getting organised.
There’s a series called The Home Edit, on Netflix.
I can’t tell you how relaxed it makes me feel.
Watching this has made me realise that, although I love to clean, l’m extremely disorganised.
This really should not be a light-bulb moment for me, given that for years I refused to open any post.
Yet I honestly was astounded by this realisation.
l am extremely disorganised.
l want to be very organised.
l am glad I have this new insight into my behaviour, because now I can change.
l am looking forward to changing.
And I know that I’ll be drawn to something else when I’ve completed this mini metamorphosis.
And I like that it’s always just a current weakness.
Because when everything evolves, nothing is permanent.
And when impermanency because our norm?
Theres nothing intimidating to see here:
Just another mini metamorphosis...